Reynolds Wrap

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

We've heard songs about it, seen it in the movies, heard it talked about on Oprah by relationship experts, and read about it in thousands of self help books. But, what is love? We all want to feel loved. We think about it, hope for it, fantasize about it, go to great lengths to achieve it, and feel that our lives are incomplete without it. The lack of love is the cause of most of our anger and confusion. It is no exaggeration to say that our emotional need for love is just as great as our physical need for air and food. But what I want to know is if that “Can’t eat, can’t sleep, reach for the stars” type of love is even out there. What if we are looking for, longing for, that ever after love, that whole, consuming love doesn’t even it exist at all? Do you know of anyone who has been together for years and are still completely and hopelessly in love with each other? How do they do it? Do you believe in true love? Is it naive to think it’s out there?

After pondering on this thought for awhile I came to the conclusion that I think the problem is people make love to complicated. We play games (intentional or not), lie, fight over pointless things, and just act ridiculous. We think too much about love. We think we need someone. Love happens and we think we know every precious little about it. But in our world today it feels like everything is for sex or advancement in some aspect of our lives whether its money or a job. Love becomes a mask over our eyes when someone has all the things we desire. So I guess when I comes down to whether or not I believe in true love and that everyone has a soul mate, I do believe a very few LUCKY percentage of us will find it but unfortunately most of us will never meet that person because we will just end up settling for what we have in front of us because we feel that need to be with someone whether he/she treats us good or not. I read a quote once that said “My knight in shining armor, turned out to be just a loser in aluminum foil”. So in world full of "Reynolds wrap", is it possible to still find that Prince Charming we all hope and dream for?

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Toxic Love

I haven’t been keeping up on this thing as much as I would have like but I’m going to try and do my hardest now that my life has calmed down a bit. This year has been so busy for me and has been filled with many ups and downs maybe a little more downs then I would have liked to have but I have been learning a lot about myself these past ten months to say the least. At the beginning of the year I moved in with who I thought was the “the one”. We had only dated for a little over a month but in our minds we knew what we knew and felt it was right. So we went against everyone’s advice and got our first place. I still remember getting our keys like it was yesterday, we were so excited yet anxious, but we so ready to start this new journey; we were crazy in love. As our first month in the new place progressed it was filled with a lot of emotion to say the least. We were both trying to get use to each other habits. His, leaving the shower curtain open or the seat up, being a guy; mine, being a little ocd about things :) After learning to compromise things couldn’t have been better and I couldn’t have been happier.After about four months of living together things started going downhill. We started fighting a lot and it wasn’t looking good for us. We loved each other more than anything but we started noticing we were a lot alike and our personalities were clashing. I just kept thinking how I can love someone so much as well as get so riled up by the same person. Around the end of June we decided it would be best to move out of the apartment and live separately for awhile to see if we could fix what was starting to break. So for all of July we worked hard on getting back to the couple we were before and before we knew it we stopped fighting and were happy again. So once again, when we felt we mended what was broken and were strong again we went apartment hunting. We moved into the new place August 1st, it was amazing to say the least. A huge two bedroom, two bath, all to our selves! We had so many plans on what to do with the place, but quickly we were back to our old selves and those dreams were whittling away. We did our hardest to try and mesh and stick it out but after a month and a half we finally gave up and realized it just wasn’t working. A month later I still have days where I struggle not having him there, but I am going to be ok. I still love and care for him, but in a different way now. He taught me a lot about myself and what kind of person I want to be and want I want a need in a man. He will always share a special place in my heart and I wish him nothing but the best.